“I’ve been to paradise but I’ve never been to me."

So, my dear not-so-anonymous-reader commented on how lonely I sound in my blogs.

Not only that – he offered to help me deal with that. LoL! Thanks but no thanks. Thankfully cheap phone cards have been invented for the sole purpose of me pushing speed dial #2 whenever I feel like it. And when that doesn’t work, I get to dial Jared’s number (because I keep forgetting which one is for him and which is for Su.) And then there’s this blogger. *muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuah* Total love of my life!

I think I already have my kids’ middle names picked out. I mean, it could ALMOST be a Chinese last name! Blog/Chong – what’s the dif?!

He also said that I make it sound like everything was perfect in Hawaii. Asked if it was paradise.

:D lol. Good observation. Yes, I do sound lonely in my blogs, and I feel that way when I write them, usually. I guess I should stop writing them at night, huh? I’m going to turn this blog upside down, and get like a new attitude – one that doesn’t drain by evening. The energizer attitude. Yeah!

Hawaii – yeah, it’s paradise to me. And I’m not alone in that. It’s been hell too, you know. Best and worst times of my life. Honestly though, I’m just looking to it so much because don’t we all fantasize about being someplace else? Some place supposedly better. “Anywhere would be better than here! (Except China…yikes!)

But you know that song? By someone named something Carpio according to my mom – Theresa Carpio (is she right? I don’t know) “I’ve been to paradise but I’ve never been to me”. Made no sense to me before. I think I really appreciate it now.

On the bright side, now that I’m single again, I can start looking for a nice Chinese guy who speaks Engerish to increase the Chinese population here with. Yay.

Hrmph. I’d rather him be mute!

Or neutered. Even if you did it yourself J-Bo.

If not, there’s always the vet that neutered my dog…. It’s mating season. It’s SO sad to watch!

On second thought – I’ll stick with mute.

I have learned some ASL after all.