WARNING: Boring, self-pitying blog - do not be deceived.

Yesterday was a great day. They released Sister Archibald as the YW President and my mom as the counselor, then had my mom and I sustained. A brother just passed away at the end of last year, we released him as the district counselor, and DAD got called in his place. He's telling everyone how he's replacing the dead.

It was just really interesting how the branch business consisted of sustaining 3 Chongs. In YWs, it's really confusing - there are TWO sister Chongs now. I'd rather them call me Faye though. Melody and Tiff were in Young Women's with me - so they are more like my friends.

I found out yesterday also that they were transfering my sisters to Singapore. *sob* They've been here forever though. Sister Cesarini (Krista) has been here a whole year! No kidding. Sister Henly (Kerrin - she has a COOL Manchester accent!) would've been here 9-10 months. I'm really going to miss them.

They made my stay here meaningful, asking me out on exchanges all the time, and gave me a hand in the missionary work they were doing. They were my friends. It made staying here for another semester look less bleak. I told them the reason they stayed so long was for me. To keep me company and give me some service to do. I will miss them so much. I hope they will go to BYUH like I've been pounding into their brains. They'd do SO well!

Highlight of my Sunday? Sunday school!!! I haven't been there since I got called into nursery. It's the first class I've been in since college. No kidding. It was nice. *sigh* I miss school.

I sat next to mom. She looked really nice yesterday with her hair up and a chinese traditional blouse on. You know, my dad's lucky. Alot of women her age just start aging. My mom is COOL. She is also extremely spiritual. I guess the good Fei, I inherit from my mom. She's incredible! She knows so much and has so much insight. Serving with her in the YW is really going to bring us closer together.

I joined the YW today. I'm stil PUMPED about my calling! lol. Han commented that the YW are getting a new girl. Got THAT right! I'm going to plan all the activities I wanted to do before. Pres. Whittaker said that in the youth, they need a motherly figure and someone cool for leaders - guess which part I get to take?! Mom says it's time to make up for when they pulled me out of YW early to serve in the nursery. I guess it sorta is. Better even. I'm SO excited!

I can see how we're going to struggle though. We have 3 Young Women right now - Melody is the oldest, she will be 16 this year. She was semi active, and I hope that she'll remain active even though her best friend in church Jenny Orgill has moved to France.

Tiffany is 15 this year. She's a really nice girl, but she is a little not quite there. A real ditz. The kind that love to roll their head. She's the average teenage girl, loves any band that's "in". The Young Men just hate her. Maybe she's just a little immature. Whatever it is, she LOVES me to death, clings to my arm after church everyday - stopped by Nursery and used our bathroom every week. I hope I can be a positive influence.

Our youngest and newest Young Women is Rachel, our Bishop's only daughter and Eli's sister. Her last teacher was Su. I have alot to live up to. Rachel is Chinese, she was adopted by the Whitakers when they were in China. She is a special girl. We will struggle with our lessons because she is not quite her age. I'm not sure how much she will get out of our lessons and mom and I are worried that Melody will be frustrated because we will have to slow our pace down.

Mom and I both feel that we should ask Tiffany to be the new YW class president. It's not the first time I've thought about it. She needs a chance to be responsible and think of the other young women. I think she will really live up to the position. But I'm really worried about Melody, and how she would feel if we called Tiffany instead of her.

I know these are trivial things, but dumb as it sounds, I struggled with that. My sister was called as the class president almost as soon as she joined the Young Women. I had been there for a year and a half already. It was a great opportunity for her, and she was perfect - she's very responsible. But that didn't make me any less jealous.

She asked me to be her counsellor. I served as a counsellor twice in the YW class presidency but never as the president. They went by age for a while, and before it got to my turn, I got called to the primary. I am very ashamed that I put alot of importance on that, but I think in alot of ways, it still bothers me. I push it aside because I know it's stupid and wrong, but it's really part of a bigger issue.

*long sigh*

Highlight of my day #2, I got to talk to J-Bo yesterday. And J.Monson - or is that Jessica M.? Yeah, gotta keep her annonymous since Jared did. She sounds cool. I noticed how I call the US so much. It's like no big deal to me and about the only phonecalls I ever make! I had an internet boyfriend before, but I'd never met him and where he lived is still a mystery to me - I've never been there, so no mental image. But BYUH is home. And I don't think I realize how far away it is because it's so near to me in my heart.

Oh, great news. My mom told me that they talked to the Admissions board to confirm my enrollment in the Spring. For some strange reason, I'm not jumping up and down like I did before. I mean it's great news. It's my parent's way of saying "Here, we're going to let you go." Truth is, I'm terrified that I'm going to mess it up again. Last time I was on cloud number 9, guess what, I'm still here.

So yeah, I got to talk to J-Bo yesterday. He seems in a slump. But then again, when has he not been. Maybe it's just when I call. It's ok. I try not to do it often.

Then I got to talk to Mark. *sigh* I think he feels a little neglected, a little envious. He always has been when I talk to Jared. And the fact that we've broken up and that we have to try to talk less doesn't make it easier on either of us.

We have been struggling. Stupid how we're still trying to make our relationship work even after breaking up huh? I was frustrated last night because he wouldn't tell me what was bothering him... to be honest, I must've just been in a mellodramatic mood - like the one I've been in all day. Anyway, I sent him to bed and disconnected without saying bye. I know, I know. I'm a girl, I do stupid emotional stuff like that. I admit it was really dumb. But you know how when you're hurt, you tend to want to hurt others too? Maybe it's just me.

Anyway, I went back to my room. Read through my lesson "Obeying the Commandments Helps Us Fulfill Our Divine Roles" and cried myself asleep with my contacts on.

Great blog material. lol. Sorry. More self-pitying things to say. Tell you what, I'm calling a recess.

To be continued...