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Opening night!!! Need I say more?

My last blog was whiney and exaggerated. I'm sorry, I was having a bad day and apparently, I wasn't the only one. Monica was too. The day after that (it was yesterday, I believe) I had 3 good meals and a long nap in the afternoon which accounted for how well the rest of my day went.

Lunch was especially nice because I sat with 4 other people who were in the play and was having a blast with them. Made me realize that I do have friends in the play after all. We watched Pres. Reagan's funeral in the caf, it was strangely neat.

So tonight was fun, we were all extra hyped up of course but I having not eaten a meal yet kept mostly to myself. Still, realizing that the lack of nourishment affects my attitude helps me balance my negatives emotions some so I still had fun.

The play went well. I don't think I messed up, tech didn't mess up my part. They laughed - always a good thing in a comedy. We did have an audience of maybe only 20 people though. That sucked. Jeff, the main character in the second play (the one I'm NOT in), "The Actor's Nightmare" had a group of fans cheering for him madly. It so happened that they happened to be my friends too. Or at least the people I call my friends. I hate to admit how sucky it felt to have them come to the dressing room to cheer for him and barely get an "Oh, hey," when I wave at them vigorously to say "Yoohoo, I'm here too!" Yeah.

I guess I'm felt somewhat insignificant tonight. I have no chance of an impressive performance. Barely enough time to screw up, even. Later that night, when I walked out of the auditorium, I ran into a couple of people I know and they all said "Great play!!!" Then it hit me. What sucked was how I couldn't take any credit for it at all.

Firstly, they were probably thinking of the second play, which was by far funnier than the first (as it should be because that one isn't comedy), which I am in. And my part was so small and fleeting that unless you knew I was in it and was looking out for me, you'd probably have to think twice before being able to recall which part I played.

I'm not kidding when I say I have a really small part. But at least I speak some.

And really, I have a movie, I shouldn't complain.

It's just really different compared to last spring. Dr. Ferre gave us all a couple of parts each and one of them was big, no matter how good or how bad we were at acting. Of course, they were all a bunch of short skits, but they were all funny. He casted so many people and gave us all a chance to shine. I grew so much in that experience. And people would come up to me later and say "Hey, aren't you the girl in the play?!" Shallow for me to enjoy that, I know, but fame is delightful.

I complain about having a small part, but all in all, it's worth it. It's safe and I still get to be a part of the production. I've made some friends at least.

OOh. Another thing that made my day yesterday - Heather came back!!! She went missing from rehearsals for a week because a guy friend came to visit and her priorities went to poop. That's how Katie, the director's sister, got the part, being the understudy and all. I was so excited to get Heather back in the most wicked way possible. Jennie told Heather how disappointed Katie was because she really wanted that part and all I could think of was BOO-YA!

Later, I heard Bonnie (Jennie's 14 year old sister who is our gopher and safety pin girl) mumble some complaint about Jennie not casting her in the play. I guess they expect to be. I'm excited for Jennie to graduate and for them to get involved on their own merrits.

I have to say, I felt a tinge of disgust when I found out that I would be doing curtain call with Katie. Bleh. Really, what serious pride issues.

Negative, negative, bad, bad, Faye. Look at me, I'm even using this blog for gossip now.

Strange how the lack of comments here has not deterred me. It's obvious that since I haven't been investing any time/energy into this blog or to commenting on friends' blogs or even on my own in reply, I don't get much in return. But it's funny how it hasn't affected me too much.

I'm using the blog as an outlet for negative thoughts now, sorry. All in all though, things are going great. I love the play, I love my job and I especially love my boyfriend. Everything else is worth it.