Who needs me where?

I remember now that when I was planning to return to Hawaii for Spring, I had Su in mind because I know my sister would need me there. Zui and her are going to break off completely at some point and she was looking forward to having me there for her instead.

When I was told I couldn't go, the first thing I thought about, honestly, was my sister. The news about the separation and me being held back got to her at the same time. She was extremely disappointed.

Now there's Mom and there's Su. Where do I fit into all this?

This whole thing hasn't been about me for a while now. I've gotten used to disappearing from the picture and just fading into the background, pushing Hawaii into the distant future. Now that I have to make a choice (do I really?) I don't even know what I want anymore.

Boy, I can't wait for my mid-life crisis. *snicker*