Aimlessness and insecurity.

Yeah. That pretty much sums up my day.

Spent most of it here in Hale 4 because Richie was working all day. He's been having a bad day. Work related, mostly, I think. But there could be more to it. I have a feeling that me hanging around really isn't helping. I don't know. I need to talk to him about what he really thinks of my company but he's so tactful that I'm not sure I'll ever really find out from him.

Alot of this is stemming from insecurity. I'm paranoid about whether my presence is welcome or not especially when I really, really like someone. But really, I don't want to be in the way.

I can't figure this out at all. What does he think about me being around all the time? It must be pretty overbearing. I say this as I'm still here in his lounge waiting for him to come back. He goes off all the time.

I don't know where I fit in all of this. What do I have to offer him? My presence seems pretty insignificant now that he gets to see so much of me. I guess I should turn it down a few notches. Go back to my room and give him space. That's what I should do.

Part of why I'm always hanging around him is because I'm trying to figure him out and what my feelings are towards him. I'm hoping that maybe if I hang around him TOO much I will eventually change my mind about him and be done with this infatuation.

Bah. I spent time here in this lounge over staying in my room and talking to Mark. I wish that I didn't feel like an idiot for it.