Good company is everything.

Tonight made up for a pretty lousy day at work for me. As soon as I got home from work I called Richie. I always kick myself for caving into my desires but I'm glad I did because we made plans to meet up at dinner. Sort of. More like a "see you there!" thing.

When I found out that he would be going to the 7.30 Comedy Sportz show tonight, I went to buy myself tickets before they'd charge me $3 extra "at-door" price. I'd already seen it last night for free (Su got a hold of a free ticket)and they were pretty good so I figured I'd pay for another show - especially since I got paid today. And what better time to go than when Richie was going?!

So I went to dinner. Got there before he did and kept looking towards the door. Gosh. I have it bad. He finally got there. The first time I've seen him in there. He was planning to go late so I left for the show before he did. Saved him a seat and as usual kept looking towards the door in the show. He finally showed up and I got him to sit next to me.

I have photographic proof too!


Richie and I at Comedy Sportz.
Can you count the number of Book of Mormons -'scuse me - Books of Mormon between us?

We both enjoyed it. Along with everyone else that was there. Afterwards, our friends were planning to watch Napoleon Dynamite in the theaters but neither of us were up to spending any money so we wandered around campus together for a while trying to decide what to do before he came up with the idea of getting together to write the song we had been talking about writing.

We carted over his amp from his room along with the guitar he helped his friend restore to the Biology Lab where he used to work. I listened in awe and in extreme jealousy as he played song after song for me on the guitar. A couple of which he wrote. I'd heard it before over the phone. The song he wrote about the ocean. I'm still working on writing the words to it.

He brought his minidisc player with him and recorded him playing a song and played back some old recordings for me. *sigh* It was beautimus.


Is there anything sexier than a guy who can make beautiful music?

After that, we stopped by his Hale and chilled for a minute while he helped put up some decorations in his dorm. I don't know why I kept sticking around. Ok. So I know - because I wanted to see more of him. But I don't know when it's appropriate to leave. With Richie, I'm never sure what he expects. I'm being pretty clingy for a non-relationship.

We managed to squeeze in one more activity before the night ended though. We joined our friends who were watching "The Adventures of Baron Munchausen". Whoah is that movie bizzarre. It took me a while to realize that I had watched that at least a couple of times as a little girl. Holy heck. Why did my mom let me watch that?!

I feel like there's something to that movie that I'm not catching. I liked it alot as a child. There's something to appreciate from it and I just can't figure out what. What were they trying to say anyway? I sat there enjoying it, nonetheless, but mostly due to nostalgia. Oh. And the magentic pull to Richie (who may have been too polite to admit that he didn't care for the movie).

Most of the time I've spent with Richie has either been from across the desk at his work or over the phone. I was wondering if there would be any physical pull between us if we sat closer to each other (you know, the desire to touch... to hold hands... or lean on him). I was able to test my hypothesis today. Yes. It was definitely there. I enjoyed every minute of it, but am still kicking myself for letting myself feel it.

Once again, with Richie, you just can never be sure what to do. You saw how far apart he sat away from him at comedy sportz. I was closer to Chris to my left who a couple of times put his arm around me. I don't usually have too much of a bubble. But with Richie it's really awkward.

I think he would get uncomfortable if I reached over and started scratching his back or something. He was telling me about a girl who grabbed his hands and how it made him uneasy. I guess I can't do that then.

Argh! This is killing me! I know I will just have to deal with this. I'll have to get rid of this "pull" or the desire to have one because I just can't act on it. In a usual circumstance, I would so snuggle up to him or lean on his shoulder or just get close to him. That's so exciting in the pre-dating stage because you'd both be thinking about holding hands and kissing.... ya know. That's what initiates relationships!

I can't do that here because we're not looking to starting anything. That would complicate things way too much. I'm too tired to write coherently. I'll have to put more thought into this in the future.

All I can say is that after all that, getting a strong clap on the back when you hug a guy you REALLY like goodnight is really very anti-climatic.